I have to confess I’ve been feeling guilty.
Guilty in that really deliciously tragic Cuban-martyr way.
I haven’t spent much time with my mom and visiting aunt. (Say it ain’t so!!!)
Because . . .
I’ve only been shuttling my cousin and her husband All Over Southern California.
And homeschooling my kids.
And cooking gourmet meals.
And running my business.
And designing costumes.
And writing.
And remodeling my studio.
And keeping my household running.
And blogging.
And scrapbooking.
And preparing for Thanksgiving at my house.
See how convoluted the guilt thing is? Yes. I have been amazingly busy. But I am still finding the time to feel guilty about everything I haven’t done. (Sick and twisted. I know.) I think this is a peculiarly Cuban guilt trip and I have got my bags packed and passport in hand! =D
So, because I can’t stand the guilt a moment longer, I dutifully go visit my mom and aunt and this is what I find:
They’ve been having the time of their lives and I don’t think they were even aware of my presence!!
Great! Now I have self-esteem issues! 😉
Martica!You’re incredible! I don’t know how you can pretty much do it all! God Bless You!
I look forward to reading your blog every single day! You always manage to present the positive side of everything. You go girl! “Hakuna Matata”
I wish you well 🙂 Melek
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“If I feel depressed I will sing. If I feel sad I will laugh. If I feel ill I will double my labor. If I feel fear I will plunge ahead. If I feel inferior I will wear new garments. If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice. If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come. If I feel incompetent I will think of past success. If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals. Today I will be the master of my emotions.” Og Mandino
oh my word – those are marvelous pics! of course you recall how I define guilt: an ordinate response to wrong doing – a position wch simply can’t withstand the cuban cultural imperative, eh? :>I’m w/ melek: looking fwd to yr post daily. thx pal.
AND time to call your friend to see how she is doing…thank you! I have been busy… (though not as busy as you)homeschooling my kids
shuttling them from activities
running my household
reading an interesting book on the Titanic
FINDING THE SNAKE (which I did last night!)
cooking, but hardly gourmet
and continuing to clean my house from the ash…how much can there still be?!
and dutifully going to my computer classes so I will one day be tech savvy ( or at least not tech challenged)
Dinner last night was delicious!P.S. Got my invite in the mail. Thanks!
Besos!
You have humbled me. I thought that as a Mexican Jew, no one was better at feeling inappropriate guilt than me. You win and I am happy you do! First you’re a better cook, now this!Talk about self esteem issues paid forward!
I love you anyway,
N
They look so happy! I love those photos!
You all are awesome!Kristen – I’m glad (?) you found the snake. and I soo wanted to talk to you today, but at least you know I care. =D
Melek –
Hakuna Matata has been my mantra since the other night with all the Africans. thanks.
N-
My mother is a master puppeteer. I totally win this one.
CF-
I love those photos, too. =D
Those pictures definitely are the best…Beautiful. Joyful…And you know, I had a little um, “session”, with um, “someone” yesterday and the topic was guilt and shoulds and the pisser that no one lays any of it on me…all me, me, me…ah, breakthroughs! You work hard. You love hard. You rock. Kick guilt to the curb.