It was so much easier when they were little.

Amy_adam_bigger097Back then I just had to worry about feeding and clothing and bathing and nurturing and kissing boo-boos and keeping the cat from being choked. (=D)

Today there are fires burning everywhere in So Cal.  Everywhere.

There is a layer of ash on everything outside and we have been told to keep our windows shut tight.  I don't think any fire will actually reach us, but because of the ridiculously high winds, anything can happen. 

My next door neighbor is hosing down his roof as a precautionary measure.  It makes me think twice, but that's not what worries me.

Phone call from Amy:
"We're on alert here at work. We may have to evacuate.  I'll let you know.  Gotta go. Bye!"

I didn't have time to recover from that bit of news when the phone rings again.  This time it's Adam.

"Mom, the fire is coming over the ridge.  Can I spend the night if I need to?" 

Of course.  OF COURSE!

And then I impotently add:  "Be safe."

THIS is why I pray.
(really heavy and prayerful SIGH.)

"Making the decision to have a child - it's momentous.  It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."
~ Elizabeth Stone